ok my first paper was pretty bad, aiming for a pass

and my second paper was a killer

not that i think i'd fail

but i dun think i can achieve extremely good grades (despite what others keep saying)

but that's not even half the nightmare

true doomsday falls on the 20th

that.. is... the true... evil...

*coughs blood*

on a side note, i've been reading tons and tons of manga

haha i've read negima from v1 to v23+ (still gong on)

and yet i'm craving for more...

you have to be lost to learn to find your path

you have to be disappointed to learn of this thing called "hope"

1st paper tomorrow

take a deep breath

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1 semester

12 weeks

4 subjects

14 hours a week

10 homeworks

1 mid sem test

1 take home exam

1 online test

2 major essays

2 maths based work

1 philosophical essay

that was how my sem was

in a way i guess i'm glad that it's over, and that the time when i go back to my tanah air gets closer and closer

but when i think back, this sem was so grueling unlike last sem and summer.

first there was financial maths, which i thought was pretty easy the first 2 lectures (cause i did that in A lvls), but when it came to week 3 onwards i was so lost

and then there was probability, which i also thought was pretty easy for the first 3 lectures or so (once again, i kinda did a bit of this back in A lvls), but when it came to week 3 onwards, again, i was so lost

these 2 subjects are not rocket science, but it's the pace they go that scares you.

many of my friends said they're so glad this sem is over and they wanna get over the exams as they look forward to the new semester

but i dont feel the same way

yes i'm glad this sem is over that means next sem with tougher subjects are coming), and i also want to get over the exams (that means next sem with tougher subjects are coming), but i don't relaly look forward to the new sem.. why?

because.. that means next sem with tougher subjects are coming =D

and i'm chickening out

it surprised my how some of my friends are so optimistic (hey i'm not trying to be pessimistic... just realistic)

i know it's gona get tougher and tougher and i know i'm gonna struggle more and more

that's why i'm chickening out

but then i guess that's part of a journey of each individual, right?

you have to struggle to get back on land

you have to fall to learn

you have to walk before you fly (HAHA PESEVEN)

you have to,..., get my point, right?

i'm not ranting, i'm not venting, i'm just thinking out loud..

not much of reflecting, but more of refracting (changing in direction in align with changing of pace.. or speed.. if you're a more science-y person)

guess once again, i succeeded in making a post where you can never get what i'm saying